This
week I practiced loving kindness meditation only a few times. But it was really
hard after the events that took place on Friday. This was a tough week with the
murders of all those innocent children. I took in a lot of grief, hopefully
some of the parents. Losing a child is something that should never happen to a
parent. And this senseless killing of so many children, I just can’t say how
awful, I can’t get my mind around it. Why? My brother lost his daughter and
that is something you never recover from.
So
as I practiced, I tried to take into my heart their loss and pain and sent love
and comfort to all the families. I’d like to say that I found some peace, but
this is too horrible. I think the best thing I did was I turned off the media
coverage, as I do not believe it is doing anyone any good.
In
the assessment I identified that my relationship with my friends and my
boyfriend could use some work. I have become very closed off and yes I am busy
with school and work, but I seem to be pushing people away. I know this is
something that I need to work on. I know a lot has to stem from my unhappiness
about where I live. I want to move back east and live in a small town. So I am
aware of what we have studied this week that I need to look at it from a new
angle, turn it around into a positive. I’ve been doing that for many years and
I am tired of it so I need a new plan. Believe it or not, writing is helping.
I
have to say, I am doing all right with fitness, nutrition and even
self-regulation. I could improve in my interpersonal relationships,
worldliness, and my psychospiritual area can use a lot of improvement. I am a
work in progress.
I
think writing a little more, calling my friends and talking to them instead of
texting is a good activity. My relationship with my boyfriend, well one step
would be for us to both put away the computers and other electronics and spend
time like we used to. I think that is the first thing to work on over the
holiday break.
Have a good week. Just Breathe
~Sara
Sara,
ReplyDeleteThank you for your post. The tragedy at the elementary school is horrible, and I pray for the families of the children and adults that were killed.
Electronics are a pet peeve of mine. Our society spends more time communicating through them than with the person sitting right in front of them.
Have a wonderful new year. Hope you get to move back east someday soon.
Stacey